I'm feeling so moody today, suppose to visit dear today, but i just cant imagine how i will break down if i am gonna spent my day with him. Communication prob? or deres something wrong with me? I'm not happy, seriously, feeling so down and depressed hearing each and single word from dear, its like pins and needles poking into my heart, not ultimately hurt but just feeling so uncomfortable if i happen to think of it. Usually, I'm just so thick skin, but definitely not this time. I will never forget.. 1. U said right to my face that my make up is thick and weird. 2. You said that even your sister thinks i'm ugly with my wig. & 3. My future workplace is filled with weird and low standard, cannot make it people and u have the guts to tell me that they actually stepped to your mum's office and ask for moon hotel and your mum's colleague start giving commends, (i seriously think that its a lie) and being most unsupportive bf ever! All i need was some encouraging words and they never come out from you ever, yet you always thinks that you r right when you have far more worse exp den me. haix. im truely speechless. breaking apart.
Thinking that today will be a time for me to calm down. Or probably you will notice deres sth wrong with me, talking things out, but u actually can be so "cant be bothered". Every time when problems occur you are only trying your best to avoid conflicts that dont resolve the root of the problem. Will u even bother to understand this?
Had my whole day wasted, watching Naruto, sleeping and going out with mum for KFC at night. haix, i need a life...
*Cant slp, im worried abt tml, everything is going back to square one, gonna adapt to a new environment again, im lazy, im tired and i hate it most. what if no one gonna eat with me, thinking of this, driving me madness, and worse thing, so many Malay in my future working environment, im not racist but i hate to speak english, issit a training ground for me? i hope its not too tough, haix jia you tiffany, jia you myself...
31 July 2010 - Day out with day
Woke up rather early when i slp quite late last night, not gonna be late this time, took this time to do my make up and put on my short hair wig thinking i will look better with that hair but probably its a mistake from the start. Msged dear and suggested maybe we can have a walk.. I guess hes nt very happy with it but just going alone with my suggestion. haix. Decided to meet at orchard.
Went to bought movie ticket "The Sorcerer's Apprentice".
